Valley of Pain

Today is a tough day for me. Without knowing my life story it's hard for people to understand the reasoning behind the way I feel today.... There are many people that I miss from my family... They are celebrating a new life as of yesterday and I am not able to celebrate with them. I wish them all love and blessings... I don't know if the bridge will ever be re-built between all of us. Only God is big enough to take care of this one. He is the only one who can heal the hurts and dry the tears. There is a deep valley of pain in my heart that I wonder if it will ever go away. Even though there has been tremendous healing... there's still a wound beneath the scar. I need the loving arms of Christ to wrap around me and comfort the heartache today... People say hindsight is 20/20... I seem to recall this saying the most on days like this ... I wish I could go back..and change how things were done.. Now I can see that there was a better way to tell a story of a young girl in pain.. instead of acting out of anger.. maybe things would be different now. But was it all in God's plan? I know he is the only one who gave me the courage to speak out... I know he was the one I clinged to during the darkest moments of my life... I am hanging on to the cloak of Christ today with all my might...

Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. Psalm 30:5