The Hawkins Family

The Hawkins Family

Friday, September 17, 2010

I will RUN.

In June of this year I made the decision and started down a new journey in my life. Running. I had tried this sport on and off for the past two years but never caught the "addiction" until this past June. Something in me changed. I believe it all is part of a new creation that God is creating inside of me. See I decided to partner with "HIM" on this road to weight loss and mastering this new hobby of mine. I can honestly say that I will give my Father all the glory for my success I have had. There are times when I am tackling a hill and I feel as if I will not make it and I focus my eyes to the sky and imagine him cheering me on. See I have tried for years to concur my weight problem. Bouncing up and down year to year. I finally came to my wits end. I feel flat to my face one late night and begged God to change me. Change my way of thinking about eating, change my desires of the food I craved, change my problem with committment to being active. And guess what, he answered. This experienced has taught me to lean completely on my everlasting Father. I do not know everything about eating right, or losing weight, or running. But He has placed a fire in my soul to learn and to complete this journey to finish my race. A passion has been revealed to me through God's mercy for me. I have decided that if I feed this passion for running and put a purpose behind the passion that it will make the victory much sweeter. I am running my first race tomorrow at the Lincoln County Apple Festival. It's only 3 miles but a huge milestone for me. I will continue my training for my half marathon that I will FINISH on my 27th birthday on the 11th of December.

One night I was awakened by nothing other than the Holy Spirit after praying over mutiple occurances in my life. I had hit a hard time in my training and was exhausted mentally and physically. I pulled myself out of the bed and went and sat on my couch with pad and paper in hand and the words written below flowed faster that my hand could write. I held onto these words for a while now until I felt the time was right to share the passion behind my purpose of running. 

I will run so that my voice will be heard.
I will run for the little girl who felt abandoned.
I will run for the little girl who felt she had no voice.
I will run for the little girl who had a poor self image.
I will run for the little girl that was violated, battered, destroyed.
I will run for me, the little girl who is now a woman.
I will run for the woman who has been broken and scarred.
I will run for me, the little girl who became a woman and now a mother.
I will run for the mother who prays her son will follow her passion for people, life.
I will run for the woman who once felt insignificant, but through Christ has found her purpose.
I will run to finish my race.

Then a few nights after the words above were sent, the one's below were born. It's no longer about just me, it's about others LIKE me.

I will run for every woman who has ever felt abandoned.

I will run for every woman who has been violated.
I will run for every woman who has battled with a poor self image.
I will run for every young girl and woman who feels that they have no voice.
I will run for every women and girl who needs their voice to be heard.
I will run for the passion of my father's heart to concur the meaning of perserverance, faith, determination, strength and success.

There is more to this story that will be shared in time. This is the time for this tidbit.

So I ask for prayers as this purpose for my running continues to come clear. I know that our community's on the brink of REVIVAL. I am ready to be used as a vessel of God.
Blessings to my all who read this my sweet friends. I welcome your comments and prayers as I continue down the journey that my Faithful Father is walking me down.
May your day end in smiles....


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